So, three days have passed since I confessed my feelings to Miss X. She blew me out as I stated, but something has been bugging me since that night. I hope you will indulge and hopefully some of you can give me some advice (particularly women).
My therapist is not one to put thoughts into my head, words into my mouth or convince me of anything that wasn’t blatantly obvious. She has always wanted me to see things the way they are but to come to my own conclusions about them. When I saw her a few days ago she was so utterly convinced that the actions of Miss X have been “clear flirting” and “deliberate attempts to impress” and was also “giving me the come on” while I was out there.
During that conversation when Miss X told me I was one of her closest friends she said that I was in a wrong place mentally to be considering a relationship with anybody. She also said that I shouldn’t just be going for the first girl on my list. At no point did she say to me “I only see you as a friend” (which is the knockback I’ve heard a many times before). She said “friends works for me” which I think is an odd way to word it.
She is confused for her feelings for this other guy and it is possible she is confused about me (I said before that when she tells me what she likes in a man, I have to cautiously admit that I tick all boxes – though my therapist pointed out that there is nothing to be cautious about as I competently tick the boxes). So, she flirts with me, I’m her type and she is seemingly being obscure in blowing me out.
She is not one to play games or lead me on and she is normally so straightforward. So, does it seem as though she is saying “no, never” or do her actions and her obscure approach to the conversation suggest “not now, try me later”? I want to believe the latter admittedly but there is no proof for the former.
Either way I am not going to push the issue with her as I don’t want to risk either our strong friendship or any chance at a future romance.
I’m just trying to make sense of this.