Posted in Mental Health

“Armchair experts” fail to understand low self-esteem

One of the tags I subscribe to as part of this blog is “self esteem” and there is one thing that really irks me about some posts that tackle the subject. I’m guessing that some of them do not have mental health issues and do not know people that do and therefore are not really understanding what low self esteem means.

The problem is that a lot of these blog posts are stating that the problem would go away if we worked hard and/or had something in life to be proud of. That way our self-esteem and confidence would be in abundance. Easy really! Just get a degree, a job or win a competition that takes real skill!

Sorry guys, it is not this simple. Like any mental health issue, it is an irrational thought process and rarely does this sort of simplistic approach work. Even people who are incredibly successful can have these negative thoughts and when their mood is lowest, even a gold medal Olympian will dismiss their successes and label themselves a failure or find an excuse to negate that success (refer back to my post where I discuss the hypothetical vet).

It is because most of us with low self esteem are perfectionists who indulge in all or nothing behaviour. We push ourselves beyond physical and mental limits and through illness because we (think we) will otherwise be perceived as a failure. Asking for help makes us a failure. Slowing down makes us a failure. Taking a break because we are not feeling 100% makes us a failure. So we plough on and when it all comes crashing down, the bottom line is confirmed.

Fighting it is not easy but through Melanie Fennell’s book I feel I have come a long way to combatting my low self-esteem. I have a job. I have post-graduate degree from a top department at a top university in the UK. I have many things to be proud of yet I have struggled at times to identify my successes. I now know how to fight those negative thoughts. Though I will most likely never be ‘cured’ of these feelings no matter how much success I achieve in life, I do what I can to fight back and limit their effects.

I can see that I have achieved things in life to be proud of, and I can list the personal successes I have had. I also know that I will always feel I could have done better. Right now it is a matter of fact that my hard graft in life has not been rewarded fully and I sometimes feel that I’m never going to make anything of myself, that it will always be a struggle, that I will always be in a dead end job and my qualifications will go to waste.

Fighting low self esteem is not about hard work, nor is it about success achieved from that work; I find it offensive when people suggest that low self-esteem is just an excuse to expect everything handed to you on a plate. I have friends with low self-esteem and I consider them some of the most passionate, amazing, dedicated and hard-working people I know. The difference is, they do not acknowledge when they have done well and that is the fine line between healthy and unhealthy self-perception.

Advertisements

Author:

I go by the name of Frank Speaking. My blog "In the Mind of Men" (former name Chin Up, Chest High) started out as a chronicle of my mental health recovery. Now it is a forum where I discuss issues related to male mental health.

4 thoughts on ““Armchair experts” fail to understand low self-esteem

  1. This is a good description of low self-esteem, I am glad I don’t have this; However, I tend to be an underachiever as well. My family has many members that do this, they are all very successful and extremely motivated people. So it makes me wonder, I’m borderline a narcissus, but maybe it makes me less driven and in that way you have a good thing.

    1. Interesting that you put it that way. I’m curious though whether you think you have underachieved in life (if indeed you have) in order not to be shown to be a failure? What I mean is, have you not put in your best at certain things because you think you might fail at it and that would challenge the narcissism? Or am I completely misunderstanding this? 1000 apologies if I am, please feel free to correct me.

      1. No, I know I’ve not done my best at the times I’ve failed, However, I’m clearly aware I’ve done it for higher priorities, not condusive to a good job. The thing is when I fail, I shrug and move on. Because the failure doesn’t reflect on me or who I am, in my mind. See the difference?

        1. Absolutely. Thank you for the explanation.

          Me on the other hand, I have always judged myself on successes and beaten myself up for perceived failures (whether they were actual failures). I guess a well balanced individual would be somewhere between

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s