Don’t worry, this is not a “bloody women” type post but a long, hard chuckle at the irony of my current situation of the last couple of nights. Just when I thought everything was clear… that all of my efforts, thoughts and feelings were starting to think that the chances for a relationship with ubergeek was looking very good and when all other options were retreating to the back of my mind, I get blindsided by the unexpected.
And now my head is all in a muddle.
Just when I thought it had all faded into the distance. Just when I had put her out of my mind. Just when I had shrugged my shoulders and thought that the moment had passed, that we had become victims of circumstances beyond our control she waltzes back into my thoughts with a lengthy text updating me on her situation and a “life is settling down. we should meet and have a catch up soon!”
Bloody women – your timing sucks. I wonder sometimes if you do it deliberately 😀 (oh, I said I wouldn’t do the “bloody women” thing didn’t I?)
I am, of course, talking about the other date for whom I had developed so much fondness, somebody who I really, really wanted to see again, somebody it took me so long to stop thinking she was out of my league and it took for her to ask me out to dinner before I started to think “maybe… just maybe there is a chance of something here.”
I am of course, talking about none other than Little Red.
I haven’t seen her in nearly three months and over Christmas I caught myself wondering whether we’d be together next Christmas. This was before I even got talking to ubergeek and the clear and obvious chemistry that developed so quickly.
I don’t see anything more than friendship for the forseeable future but having that contact again has tugged on the heart strings a little and made me wonder “what if…?”
Don’t really think I’m asking for advice. I know what I have to do… take it one day at a time, enjoy the company and conversation of both women until there is hint of something more than just casual dating with either one and see where life takes us.