Ubergeek went away for a week for her PG graduation and met up with her ex. And they got back together…
Shit, Shit, Shit, Shit, Shit, Shit!
Here is a lesson in keeping your options open people: take nothing for granted – and I’m glad I did just that. If I hadn’t that would have meant I had learnt nothing from the saga of Miss X.
Though I’ve not messaged many women since our first date, I have been sending contacts out, though admittedly half-heartedly and being even more picky than normal.
And how am I feeling? A year ago I would have been distraught and mentally punishing myself for being too ugly, too fat, not confident enough, not successful enough… just as I did with Miss X. But now, though terribly disappointed and a little sad (and reading this post is just a little painful) at a lost opportunity, I’m generally fine. If I didn’t feel those things then I would be questioning whether I had any feelings for her at all. But as it is, this now feels… normal I suppose. Not distressing, not leading me into a cycle of self-criticism and self-punishment for perceived failures I’m just taking it for being the situation as it is.
Pleased she thought enough of me to be upfront and tell me she wants to stay in touch.
I know I have options and once I get back on the horse I could find a few more in time.
There is still Little Red, who has told me again that she wants to meet soon. I’m giving up on l’Canadien as she has been silent despite her enthusiasm for a second date; the ball is now in her court. I have a number of women in my favourites list on both OKC and POF. Time to start going through them I guess.
So back on the horse it is…